Read this when you want him back:
Hi Lee.
Are you thinking about him? Don't. He wasn't worth it. And I know you'll disagree with that. I KNOW it. But try and remember all the times you would get irritated with him. When he'd push you to tell him something you didn't want to. When he always had to be better than you. When he'd do muay thai moves on you. And I know you would have put up with that forever, because you cared so much for this boy. But he is happy. He loves her. He left you, FOR HER. And you know what? You are better because of it. You are beautiful and strong and incredible. There WILL be other guys, guys who will make your heart skip a beat and make your stomach sprout butterflies. There will be a guy, or two or five who make you forget about M and all the pain you are feeling right now. And I don't know when it will happen, but it will. Maybe in five years, maybe in seven, maybe in a month. I don't know, but it will. And when you find a guy who will treat you right, and perservere through everything with you, you will realize that M was necessary so that you could appreciate this guy. I think that everything happens for a reason, and for three months, you had this beautiful, exquisite relationship so that you could learn this one simple lesson: You deserve the best. Not close to the best, or almost the best, THE BEST. You deserve that guy who you can call crying at 4am. You deserve the guy who will take silly pictures with you, and bake cakes, and pick you up in his car, and kiss you in the rain, and buy you starbucks, and play with your hair, and kiss your neck, and kiss your shoulder. You deserve that guy, and that guy ISN'T M, no matter how much you want him to be. I'm so sorry honey, I know a thousand words would never be able to make you stop missing him, but you will be okay. You will grow old and you will meet so many amazing boys. You will remain friends with M, and maybe one day, you'll look up and realize that thinking about him doesn't hurt anymore, and talking to him isn't painful. And you'll look back and see how far you both have come and you'll be proud of yourself and of him and you will smile. You will smile. A boy will make you smile, and it will be a million smiles and a thousand boys and you will make it through this, because you are incredible. There will be a guy who'll compromise and put your happiness first, and send you good morning messages, and buy you flowers, and who'll wake up next to you and come home from work to you and who will go on thousands of dates with you. You will have gorgeous children and when your daughter or daughters have their hearts broken by their first loves in high school, you will look at them and share your story of a boy named M, who was actually born in Nebraska, and who broke your heart. And then hopefully, you'll call him up and tell him, and you will both laugh and move on with your lives. Honey, you will get past this. You will have a wonderful career, an amazing family, a house that you'll turn into a home, and friends, and he will hopefully be one of those friends. And you will wake up one day and realize that your heart doesn't hurt and that you can remember things without crying. And then you'll be okay. You'll be okay, because there are only happy endings, so if you aren't happy, it isn't the end. You will be alright. I know you loved him. I know you really could see yourself spending eternity with him, and that you still hold onto a hope that you'll get back together, but it wont happen. And that's okay, because that just means you have the freedom to learn from everything, and then move on and find someone who can make you happier. and I know that looks so impossible right now, but you CAN do it, and you WILL do it. You're beautiful. I love you.
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